I wish you knew what was going through my mind.

Everything used to be so much simpler than this.

Judging others

Ever stand there with your friends while they complain that people judge them and then they’re off judging every living being in sight? Makes you feel uncomfortable because you couldn’t really give a shit about what others wore or did and you don’t say anything because they’re your friends.

Don’t fall for me.

I really hope that you don’t. I’ll only end up hurting you terribly. You deserve someone who’ll actually go out of their way to make you happy. I’m too caught up in my own things to even manage a relationship. I’m sorry. Please don’t, if you do, just forget me. I’m a terrible person to fall for.

Ignorant and narrow minded

That’s what you two are. Also very judgmental on that part. Belittling me because you think ti’s stupid. Not only that you think you’re superior to me in some ways and it’s pretty fucking annoying. If I belittle you, you take it the wrong way and think i imply something else and wage war.

Then YOU hate things because things don’t go your way. You’re so narrow-minded and refuse to forgive because you’re judgement is clouded by your feelings. Now you love it. it really pisses me off because I clearly remember you saying how you hated it because it took people away from you. No it didn’t. You just refused to join and blamed it because you didn’t have 10% of his attention and decided that it made it bad to even like such a thing.

Reasons.

Your words feel like a knife slowly cutting through my skin. You shoot down anything I like. Telling me it’ stupid and that I should just give up on it. Despite I tell you how important it is to me. If i belittle the things you like even in the slightest, it turns into a big deal and you make me out into an asshole. I also lose in our arguments because the things I’d have to say would make you cry and hate me. Despite the fact that I want to cry every time you treat me like this. Telling me reading fantasy books won’t get me anywhere in life is stupid. Reading a romance book won’t get you a fucking boyfriend you cunt.

Results

After all our handwork we’ve finally gotten somewhere. The final one was absolutely perfect, the only flaw was that single blackout other than that, it was perfect. Great energy and good volume. There was a bit of blocking, but with some work we can fix that. The last one is finally coming and I’m excited but a bit sad. Because after this, what will I do? I’ve spent three months on this and now it’s gonna be over. I’m gonna be a bit lonely to be honest.

Progress

I’m getting there. But I didn’t make any progress until the end came around. It’s a bit sad because after this, I wont see you anymore. We won’t have anything to talk about. Unlike the relationship I have with Daniel, I can’t just come up to you and randomly start talking about shit that makes no sense. We’re still a bit awkward but we’ve at the stage where we’re acquaintances but we’re nearly friends.

Phone calls > Texting…

I honestly think texting is boring, I understand how texting is, how people communicate. But during a phone call, you could talk way more. Listen to his/her voice. Hear them laugh, or cry. You could hear them snore when they sleep, you could hear them sing, you can do way more in a phone call then a text message, well that’s my point of view of how phone calls are better then texting.